Baby Blues

My friend has just told me that she’s pregnant, I’m really very happy for her!
But it’s stirred up even more feelings for me now.

I had really hoped that we would have started to TTC…
I’m constantly watching my fertility charts so I can use them when we do decide to! Almost every day I record my BBT temp, my mood and symptoms and any other relevant information. I’m just utterly depressed that I can’t even speak to him about it. I really wish that I could, but I just don’t know where to start.

Ugh, I’m so sick of waiting for the ‘right’ time! It’s so damn natural for a woman to want to become a mother, why does it have to be this difficult all of a sudden? At least if we were trying then I’d find it all a little more easy to deal with.

Meh. I need to talk to him before my head explodes!

I did just figure out that we have BD’d quite a lot around the time I think I ovulated, so I’m technically on the 2ww. Doing a bit of symptom spotting, but I can’t help it. I know I’ll just end up having AF after all this, I’ve done it to myself too many times before now…

I really hope I get some kind of progress this month, either we decide or that we have actually conceived. It’s so hard to wait much longer for this!!