Damn Evap Lines!

Stupid tests, I’ve taken three of these internet cheapies from FertilityPlan on eBay.

The first one at 11 dpo was negative, couldn’t see any line whether I had wanted to or not! Wasn’t with FMU though.

Second at 12 dpo with FMU, negative within the time frame, but a very very feint positive line showed up after 40 mins…grrr! It has a pinky tinge, so didn’t rule anything out.

Third this morning at 13 dpo…well, there was a feint line within the time frame which disappeared as quickly as I’d seen it…now it’s back again another hour or so later. Again, with a pink tinge but a little easier to see than yesterday’s.

So, are these just evap lines, or does the fact that 2/3 have been like this mean something?? GRRR!

Best I can do is wait for another few days I guess! I’ll be really disappointed if it’s negative after these

Good luck to anyone else testing!

It’s so hard to refrain from POAS so early!

Baby Blues

My friend has just told me that she’s pregnant, I’m really very happy for her!
But it’s stirred up even more feelings for me now.

I had really hoped that we would have started to TTC…
I’m constantly watching my fertility charts so I can use them when we do decide to! Almost every day I record my BBT temp, my mood and symptoms and any other relevant information. I’m just utterly depressed that I can’t even speak to him about it. I really wish that I could, but I just don’t know where to start.

Ugh, I’m so sick of waiting for the ‘right’ time! It’s so damn natural for a woman to want to become a mother, why does it have to be this difficult all of a sudden? At least if we were trying then I’d find it all a little more easy to deal with.

Meh. I need to talk to him before my head explodes!

I did just figure out that we have BD’d quite a lot around the time I think I ovulated, so I’m technically on the 2ww. Doing a bit of symptom spotting, but I can’t help it. I know I’ll just end up having AF after all this, I’ve done it to myself too many times before now…

I really hope I get some kind of progress this month, either we decide or that we have actually conceived. It’s so hard to wait much longer for this!!